Ahhhhhhhhh........

...my last day off of school until the 4th of July. Mary and Roger are coming for dinner tonight, and I'm freaking out that I haven't cleaned enough or something like that. It's like my parents are coming, and I'm trying to prove to them that I'm not a slob. And I'm not since I moved into my own place.

This weekend was a good one. Friday started out shaky, but turned out to be great. First, Amanda's plane was delayed, and she got in at about 11:45pm on Thursday. Then we didn't get back to my apartment until about 12:45. Waking up at 5:45am was not cool. We left the apartment at about 6:50-7am. We got to where mapquest told us Amanda's school was, but it wasn't there. It took us an extra 15 minutes to find her school, which made her 10 minutes late and me 20 minutes late. I was freaking out about being late! I called the school to let them know that I was going to be late, and I drove as fast as I could without getting caught. I was upset because the school zones were still in effect, even if the students weren't in school that day. The school was awesome. I felt welcome, and the staff was really nice. It was like being in a place opposite of what I work in now. I went out to lunch with some teachers, and had a great time. I was even walking up to people and introducing myself. I was going way out of the comfort zone with that. It was a really good day. I called mom and told her that if I didn't end up at home in August, I wouldn't be upset.

Friday night Amanda and I went to the Strip. We had to talk ourselves into getting up off of the futon to go to the Strip, but we got down there. We went to the World's Largest Gift Shop (they roped off Elvis Adrienne!! You can't get as close as we did anymore!), and then drove down to the other end of the Strip to get a drink and wander. We went into M&M World (with drinks), and I had to show Amanda the "rejects" since she had just seen the pics. They put something in front of it so you can't sit there! Not cool Kool-Aid! Anyhoos, we ended up going to a 3D movie at M&M World, and then heading to PF Chang's for dinner. Got to PF Chang's and there was a 45-60 minute wait, so we decided that going home and putting on our PJ's while eating chinese carry out sounded good too. It was almost immediately after we put our food away when we both started falling asleep watching TV. When I got up to move to my room, Amanda just laid down without opening the futon...and stayed there until I woke up the next morning at 8:30.

Saturday we just went around the area where my apartment was since she'll move in with me if I stay out here. I dropped her off, came home, made plans to go see a movie with Mary for Sunday, and worked on some lessons. I decided to finish up with the lessons I was working on, and make potato salad for this weekend.

Sunday I went to see Akeelah and the Bee. It was a really good movie. I recommend seeing it. But I also have a special place in my heart for the National Spelling Bee. All I need to say is...pococurante. I went back to Mary and Roger's for dinner, and Roger ended up having me order few pizzas online. I came back to my apartment, started falling asleep while finishing up my lessons (at about 8:30pm), and finally finished at about 11, just because I needed to take breaks to wake myself up.

Today I've just been running around the apartment and other places to make sure I had everything for tonight. They're going to be here in about 40 minutes, and I'm really freaking out. I don't know why, but I am...

Adam placed the face with the name...

...Clay looked like kd lang last night.

Hump Day

Ok, let me start by spazzing about American Idol. I've never watched a season of AI all the way through. I've always watched the auditions, and then some in between. This season I got addicted to it. I even voted last night for the winner. Granted, Paris should've been up there in the final 2, but I can handle Taylor being in the final 2. First things first. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO CLAY AIKEN'S HAIR?! I had a flashback to 8th grade when I screamed out loud about Zack's long girly hair...because I screamed when I saw Clay. Had it not been for the horrible Clay look-alike, I would've been wondering who the hell was singing. Second, is it bad that I knew, without having to hear Ryan Seacrest announce him, that it was Burt Bacarach coming on stage only because of my knowledge of Austin Powers? I was half paying attention to the TV, but looked over and saw him walking on stage. I thought, "huh, that's Burt Bacarach...he's from Austin Powers." And my final rumination about tonight's episode...Why did they have to show David Hasslehoff tearing up after they announced the winner?! Honestly, did they HAVE to do that?

Ok, here's something that brought a smile to my face everytime I thought about it today (and I'm smiling now even thinking about what I'm going to write!). Each month I have to pick a student for the "Wrangler of the Month". This month was hard since we've only been in school for about 10 days. I was trying to think of kids who behaved all the time, and were doing well in school...and weren't a pain in the bee-hind these past 10 days. I thought about it, and I decided to choose my mini 50 Cent. He's been trying so hard to stay on green all day every day. He hasn't left green since we've gotten back, AND he's been setting a great example for the rest of the class. I was just way to proud of his transformation to let it slip by without some recognition. I sent a letter home from the office letting the parents know he was getting an award, and he came in today with a grin on his face when I asked the class to line up for the assembly. It was really cute. When I got up there to introduce him to the school, I could see him beaming from ear to ear when I looked out at him. The assistant principal was really shocked and congratulated him when he came up on stage. For the rest of the assembly any time he caught me looking at him, he beamed from ear to ear and pointed at his award. He was so proud of himself, and I was really proud of him. He even left the pencil that came with his award on my desk tonight so no one would take it. I'm so proud of him!

The rest of the day didn't go so well, but I don't think I want to go into detail about it. Long story short, thought I was going to get reamed this afternoon when I had my post observation meeting.

I think I want to come home. Being home this weekend solidified that decision. As I was getting closer and closer to the airport, I kept saying that I didn't want to head back to Vegas...and then as I flew over Madison, tears began welling up. I just don't know what I want to do right now...

Off to bed...this is the latest I've been up all week. Sad, I know...

I'm heading home!

I'M HEADING HOME!!!!!

See you Suck Town!!!!

Not much to say...

I'm Yours-Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
A la peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A la one big family (2nd time: A la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours


I love Jason Mraz...and I love this song. I heard it for the first time while I was in California with my sisters. I love it! It's a good song to help you get out a funk that your students have put you in (This...and venting to Dan the whole way home from school!).

I don't have much going on. I only have one more day of the week, and then I'm on a flight home at 11:59pm my time. I can't wait for that. I feel rushed though...I know that once I get in my room tomorrow I have SO much to do. I couldn't bring myself to stay late at school this week. I know that I have to clean up my desk, copy math packets, and write a detailed note to the sub...It's ok...I'll be home Friday morning until Monday afternoon...It'll be good, a good relaxing weekend. Friday morning I'll drive home, go out to breakfast with Erika, do lunch with Jeane, maybe hit up the garage sales back in my 'hood, hopefully meet up with Eve for coffee, and then head back to Milwaukee. Nap time in Milwaukee, and then we're having a Cult Reunion (Jill, Dan and I...minus Adam-who's a punk!) and taking Sue out for a pregraduation celebration! I CANNOT WAIT! I can't wait to see everyone this weekend. I'll be in Milwaukee Friday night and Saturday, but I'll be back in Madison Sunday afternoon/evening until I need to head back to Milwaukee for my flight in the afternoon.

Good times await me!

I'm so tired...

I went to bed early last night...and I knew it was going to be rough when I couldn't wake up for anything this morning. I dragged myself out of bed, wet my hair, styled it, and laid down on the futon until the last possible minute to leave my apartment...School was kinda ok...We had to take our district test today, and one of my kids got the test on his desk, and proceeded to cry for the whole hour it took us to finish the test. Good times had by all. It got worse from there, but I'd rather not think about it since I'll be heading to bed in just a bit to have another day of testing...Oh well, I only have 2 more days this week, and 3 next week.

Worked on lessons tonight. I'm done with spelling and math for next week, and I know that I'll be able to pull lessons from this week into next since we aren't getting too much done this week with the test.

Amanda got a job out here! She's coming out next week for the last staff devo day of the school year. We both get to go to our new schools for this! It turns out that she's about 10-20 minutes from my new school, and her school's about 25 minutes from my apartment. So...if I'm here next school year there's a possibility that I'll have a roommate! That would be cool!

Good Weekend

"Old Time Memory"-Josh Kelley

Standin 'round in a crowded room
Your face is here bring me back to you
Leaving town slips into my head again
My friends say stay but I wanna go
There's people here that I used to know
To the situation that you put me in
And I can tell myself that I will be gone
You can rest assure that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory
You're an old time memory

Laying back with the headphones on
A pen in hand takes me to the dawn
Paper warned to the thoughts of you again
Taking light of the time of night
A ballpoint fast full of work in mind
The chorus playing in my head again
Cuz I can tell myself that I will be gone
But you can rest assure that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory
You're an old time memory

Well the feelings that remain
And the promises in vain
And the memories are stained
You do

Cuz I can tell myself that I will be gone
And you can rest assured that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory


I put in an old CD on Friday night as I was driving back from picking up Chinese for dinner. I had a mini-meltdown at school, and needed something good for dinner...something I didn't have to cook. I put in a CD that I made 3 years ago, and this song was on it. I've loved this song forever...and Josh Kelley. There are other songs on the CD that make me smile with memories of back then. Good times.

As I said, I had a mini-meltdown at school on Friday. The whole day started out on the wrong foot. As I was getting dressed, I decided I wanted to wear a black shirt. I put on my black bra (sorry, tmi, I know...), and then my black shirt. Well, I decided to change my shirt, because I didn't want to wear my black shoes. I put on a lavender shirt. About 3/4 of the way to school I realize that I'm wearing a lavender shirt with a black bra. Great, I don't have time to turn around and change. I'm panicking and looking in the mirror to make sure you can't see my shirt. You can't, so I'm ok. I get to school, I'm printing out my lessons, and checking my email. I get up, go to the board, and start writing the DOL and math review on the board for the kids. As I'm writing, I hear the asst. principal come on the PA and start telling the teachers that if we had Art for our special, we would have to keep the kids since there wasn't a sub for the Art teacher. I look up to the place where I keep the specials listed...yep, Art is today. At lunch I find out someone is going home early, and there's the possibility of some of her kids coming into my room, so I have to figure out what to do with these kids. Turns out the kids aren't coming in, but I still had to think of something to do for my kids during Art. I decided to take them outside, even though it was hotter than Hades out, to play a game to review verbs and adjectives. I got many, "it's too hot out" or "I'm sweating". I'm trying to do something fun for you kids, and all you do is complain?! Not cool. I take them back inside, tell them I don't want to hear voices in the hallway. They were loud as hell! I took them back into the room, made them line up quietly, and that didn't happen. I sat down and told them I wanted explanations as to why they were so loud. One of the kids told me that it was because it was Friday. I didn't care, and I told him that's not a good excuse. Then a couple of kids told me they were bored. That was the last straw. These are the kids who had been talking too much all day, and weren't paying attention to anything going on. I felt tears welling up behind my eyes, and my voice was cracking when I was telling one of my problem students that he needed to get in line. A student asked if I was crying, and i told her that no, I wasn't crying, but I was ready to. They quieted down for a few minutes, but were back to normal soon after...I left school, blared SOS as loud as I could, and came home. I almost screamed when I looked toward my patio ledge to find that half of the buds on my plant (Gwyndolyn) bent over. I came in, dropped everything on the floor, and rushed outside with water for my plant. I turned on my computer, but I just wanted to put up an away and lay down for a bit. Before I could put up an away, John IMed me, and told me I needed to apply to a kindergarten job at a Catholic school in Merrill, since he'll be the Youth Minister there. We got to talking, and I was half paying attention since I was playing my games on Pogo, and telling mom about my day. After I hung up with mom, John and I were discussing me moving home and why. I gave him some reasons, and he suggested one more...it made me literally laugh out loud. Leave it to a man who was almost a priest to get me out of my funk. :)

Yesterday I got a wake up call at 9:30 from Mary. She invited me over for dinner Sunday night, and I think could tell she woke me up. It was a hot day. It finally broke 100, and I finally turned on the air. I was sitting at my computer feeling a hot breeze coming in, and decided to turn on the AC. There's nothing like wearing a tank top and trying to put what little hair you have back in a pony tail to cool you off. I put in a great CD, and started working on my lessons. A few minutes after I started my lessons, there was a friendly knock on my door. I didn't know what to do...I had my music blaring, and I looked like hell. I went to the door, looked out, and there was a really cute guy standing in front of my door. I knew Dan would kill me if I didn't answer it, so I did. He started telling me that he was a neighbor out getting votes for a trip somewhere, and that he was doing this as part of his communications class to better his public speaking skills. He was really funny and such, and I was talking with him, and he started showing me magazine lists. There were no prices, and I got sucked into thinking they were for free as part of his class. Turns out I wrote out a check for magazines, but looking back, I shouldn't have. I'm going to call and cancel my subscriptions tomorrow since I can't afford any magazines right now. But he was cute, and I was flirting back. See guys, I can do it...he was a complete stranger! I set a goal of 8:30 to get my lessons done, and I did meet that goal. I went out shopping for sandals, and other things. I got my sandals, some freeze pops, and a pot to replant Gwyndolyn. Painted the pot (I've missed doing that every year like we did in Sensenbrenner), and watched TV.

Today I woke up and started cleaning up the apartment. I went shopping for produce and stuff to make for Mary and Roger. Got some great watermelon, cantaloupe, strawberries, and asparagus. Got cookie dough to put in the oven to make cookies for Mary and Roger. Went to Mary and Roger's, and had a very fun time. As I was leaving, Mary was telling me that there's a good restaurant in their gated community, and how they'd have to take me sometime. And she kept telling me how great her school is. Somehow I think Mary and Roger are trying to make me want to stay in Las Vegas.

Quick update

Thought I would throw up a quick update before I go and TRY to get to bed at a reasonable hour, seeing as how that didn't happen today.

I went to my surplus meeting tonight, and I was able to get my first pick. I decided on choosing the school Mary teaches at, teaching 5th grade. I'm actually excited about it, and I guess if things don't work out back home I'll have someplace that wants me. As I was signing my papers, someone came up behind me and started introducing herself to me. It turns out it was the assistant principal. She was asking for my name, and I looked at her and told her that I was Mary's goddaughter. She lit up when she heard that. She was really excited about finally having me at the school, and everything like that. She took me up to the principal and told her who I was, and she was excited too. I ended up leaving the meeting with my very own polo (red...does that count Dan? What about if I wear a red polo?) for the new school. It made me feel good that I was wanted. I called Mary after the meeting (well, after I drove another teacher from my school home), and told her about it. She literally squealed with delight. It's been her dream ever since I wanted to be a teacher (2nd grade) for the two of us to teach in the same school. It may just happen this next school year. The only thing that sucks is the fact that it's a 9 month school, and I won't have the big vacay I thought I was going to have. Oh well...

I don't know what to do...

First of all... I still don't know what to name my plant...I've had many suggestions, and I think I like Mildred and Gwyneth the best. Carnal Treasure (submitted by Adam) does not even enter my list of names.

And now onto my life...I don't know what to do. I just don't know...I went through my list of schools that have openings for next year, and I have a solid list of ten positions that I would like. Two of them are at the school Mary teaches at. I know I would enjoy teaching there, and I know the principal wanted to get me into the district, but I don't know...I don't want to sign up for it, and then in July/August tell her that I'm leaving for back home. I don't want to do that to someone who wanted me to work at their school for this school year, and I turned her down, and then tell her I'll be there next year, and turn her down. But, she never emailed me back a month ago when I told her I was looking for a new job...I don't know what to do! I've never not known what to do like this before. All through my life I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to become a teacher. I've done that. I knew I didn't want to work in the Madison schools. Check. I never wanted to move to Vegas...I moved out here, to everyone's surprise. I've never had second thoughts about teaching like I'm having now. Maybe it's just the politics out here in the district. The only thing that our principal and our assistant principal can talk about are test results. It's all about getting our test results higher. That's the only thing that's talked about at school. I know that test results are important, but we need to focus on the students. I know we can look at the test results, and determine what we need to work on with our students. There just has to be more than test results. I've never really taught in other districts, but when I was student teaching, I never heard talk of tests like this.

It all goes back to the No Child Left Behind. In my opinion, we're leaving kids behind. We're teaching them to the tests. That's not how we should teach. I'm not sure exactly how we should teach, but teaching to the tests is not right. There are other ways to assess the students, and the teachers. These tests are putting more stress on the teachers. I know I'm stressed with the tests that we give our kids. We take our interim tests next week, and the lessons I have planned for Thursday and Friday of this week are geared toward things we didn't get to this trimester that will be on the test next week. I want the scores to be higher than last test, because the last test I had the excuse for parents that the low scores were due to the lack of consistent teaching. Whatever. I'll stop my rant. But...I was emailed a great article about teachers today.

In good news, I got an email from the Director of Res Life at SNC. I had emailed him last Friday to ask if it was alright if I used him as my supervisor for my RA/AHD positions since my HDs have since left SNC. I mentioned to him that I was thinking about going back to school for Student Affairs if I ended up not wanting to teach anymore. He told me that he could really see me doing that. He offered me a soda and a discussion if I ever wanted to pick his mind about it...Awww...good times.

Well, I should think about going to bed since it's 11, and I need to get up for school tomorrow. I really should've gone to bed early all this week, and gotten up early...Oh well...

I need help!

I bought a pot of flowers today...and I don't know what to name her! I need help!

What do I name her?!

"We're members of the Case Club!"

...is what I heard at least 3 times this morning...I'm not used to people calling me past 11pm here, since that would make it 1am back home. I knew someone had either died, or Dan was drunk when I heard his ring on my phone at 12:15am (my time). Yep, he was drunk. Good times. I haven't had a drunk-dial from Dan in FOREVER! It was awesome. He was telling me about how he went mini-golfing, the different bars he went to, and I could just tell that he was really excited about being in the Case Club! Did you know that if you go to Wollersheim Winery, you can get a bottle of $20 Port for only $6.50?! If you didn't...now you know. I had to share, since I was told that a million times...Good times. Helped me be less lonely.

I got really bored and lonely tonight. I decided after my sisters didn't want to talk on the phone, that I would go out for a drive. I thought that going out for a drive and blaring tunes would be helpful. I knew everyone was out, so I decided to try giving Adam a call to see what he was up to. When I got his voice mail, honestly starting tearing up. It felt like no one wanted to talk to me. I put on some good tunes, and started jamming out. I was thinking about things, and it still wasn't working. I then started racing some guy on 215, whilst listening to S.O.S., and I got smiley with that. It's the little things. Adam called me back, and we talked for almost 2 hours. Mostly about throwing stars, but also about different shows we could see while he is out here. Carrot Top is out...damn him! But talking to Adam helped my mood, and then talking to Dan helped too.

I just really hope something works out back home...that's what I really want...

Hell...

This can't be right...

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Gluttony: 20%

Greed: 20%

Envy: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

Fat People Unite!

I totally forgot to put this in here, and was reminded of it whilst talking to Dan today.

We were talking about me applying for a job in the Madison Metropolitan School District (which I've had qualms with for a damn long time), and he was telling me that one of the key people in the district had left. I thought he was talking about the union head (whom I have not liked), but he was talking about one of the school board members. He told me that this guy annoyed him...and that he was fat. Out of this conversation, I concluded that Dan gets annoyed by fat people.

This morning we were talking, while we were at the Farmer's Market and the Monona Terrace (he had me on the phone while he went up there), he also said that hippies annoy him. I guess there were some hippies on the Square, and he found them to be annoying. I told him that his worst nightmare had to be a Fat Hippie. He then said that it's more like a Fat Flaming Hippie. He also told someone he "didn't do dorms" on his way back to his apartment. Who says that?!

Feels like I've done this before...

I spent 4 hours today in front of my computer filling out applications, or just going through the listings of open positions in Wisconsin. I believe that at the last count, I was up to 23 positions applied for, and about 10 more that just need my resume and credentials. I don't know if I even searched this hard the past two summers. I knew that I needed jobs, but I don't think I wanted to find any...well, last summer I did. I wanted to find one in the state. I'm hoping that something comes of this job search. I really want to come home now. I was talking to Adrienne today about how I can say that I at least moved out here. In my first outing from home, and first real job in my field, I moved 2000 miles away from home to Las Vegas. I can tell my kids that I got my tattoo while I was living in Las Vegas in my 20s. I can now tell people of my first teaching position that I had...in Las Vegas. Many people can't believe I moved out to Las Vegas by myself. I can't believe I did it either. I never thought I would do this. In August at grandma's 100th birthday party I was telling my family that if Sue was going to go to UNLV's Law School, then maybe I'd THINK about moving out here to teach knowing they need teachers all the time out here. A few weeks later was when Mary called me, and the debating began. It was a lot of debating, and a lot of tears. Just ask Patty and Dan. They were there the night everything was brought up...but I did learn that I have the greatest friends through this. Not just anyone has friends who will throw them a surprise going away party without even having job...and keeping it a secret! It's these things that I miss, and want to go home to. I know that they won't always be there (in Wisconsin), but they're there now, and I think my teaching experiences will be better if I have some people to turn to when I need them. I know that I can turn to them now, but they're 2000 miles away. I really don't have anyone here my age to turn to. There are other reasons that I want to come back to Wisconsin, but I think we all know why.

Yesterday I spent hours with Dan trying to figure out what he was going to do for this summer. Should he commute from Madison to Oshkosh everyday? Should he sublet his apartment and find one up in Oshkosh for the summer? I went to all sorts of websites for him to see if we could find anything for him. Nothing really came up, but I contacted a couple of people I know up in Oshkosh. I haven't talked to them in years, but oh well, anything to help him. This proves that I DO have a heart sometimes.

Wednesday turned out to be a great day. I left the house to pick up Mary for shopping "early" (and I consider leaving my apartment at 10:40am early). I got there, dropped off the pumpkin pie I baked for Roger, and we were off. I was worried about the pie, seeing as how Roger was pulling up to the house as we were taking off. I half expected it to be finished when we came back. It was an adventure shopping. I still hadn't found much at Old Navy. I was disappointed, but I was able to find a pair of capris that I can wear to school when I go back. We headed off to the mall for Mary to find hats. She was trying them on, and told me she didn't really need a mirror since she could tell by my face whether the hats looked good on her. Guess I shouldn't play poker anytime soon, huh? We went to lunch together, and it was fun. We got to talk about school stuff, and other things that were going on. We went to an interesting place for lunch. We went to Sweet Tomatoes. It's a big salad bar place. It has the salad bar, but then it also has a soup, bakery, and pasta bar. I didn't know what to think of it at first, but it was really good. It was refreshing. We headed back to her place, and on the way home we ran into traffic. I showed her Sue's graduation present, and she loved it. She couldn't believe I could do all of the work on it so quickly. It wasn't really quick, I just had free time and didn't want to leave it unfinished. When we got back to her place, I came in and sat down with her and Roger. It was like I was living with them again. I helped make dinner, and everything. It was weird eating dinner just 2 hours after finishing lunch, but oh well. I had fun mocking Roger, and he had fun giving it right back. I helped him move a chair to his backyard (or cement slab...depends on who you're asking). Mary almost killed us for moving it. It wasn't that heavy. As Roger and I were outside moving the chair Mary asked if I wanted to take roses home. Like I was going to refuse roses! That turned out to be a chore for Roger. He ended up pruning the rose bushes after he cut some roses for me. It was really awesome seeing them again. I may see if I can start a weekly dinner with them. I always have a fun time when I see them!

Tonight I just sat around and watched TV. I made tacos and a margarita for dinner since it was Cinco de Mayo, and vegged. I ran to WalMart to get hangers and Rice Krispie Treats (which I forgot to get!). I came home and made an irish cream shake. Yeah, I was being an alcoholic tonight, but I needed the drinks after this week. And again, watched TV. Granted it was quality TV. Who wouldn't enjoy a night of a new episode of Degrassi and season 10 of Friends on DVD. Good times...

Good Day

I had a really long entry, yet the autosave didn't pick up the whole entry...thus, I will be posting tomorrow sometime now...

Good Song

I LOVE this song! I have for a long time, but I had to put it in here...Lovin' it!

"S.O.S. (Rescue Me)"

Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh
You know... I never felt like this before
Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh
Feels like.. so real

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up
And I'm aggressive just one thought of close enough
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer
You make me shaken up, never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard,
I can't take it, see it don't feel right
S.O.S. please someone help me
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

Just your presence and I second guess my sanity
Yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity
My tummy's up in knots so when I see you I get so hot
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock
Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
Take me on I'm put desire up in your arms tonight
I'm out with you, you got me head over heels
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making (Y.O.U.) this hard,
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it ('Cause you on my mind)
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me (someone come and rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

Boy, you know you got me feeling open
And boy, your loves enough with words unspoken
I said boy I'm telling you, you got me open
I don't know what to do it's true
I'm going crazy over you,
I'm begging

S.O.S. please somebody help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard (are you making this hard for me, baby?),
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me (someone rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it ('cause any time)
I'm lost you, got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me (best of me), I'm losing it

Lala lala lala lala Ohhh
Ohh ohh lala lala lala lala
Oh oh

It's Finally Happening

Yep, that's right, I'm finally updating.

I was going to go into depth the last two weeks, but I'm very sluggish with the heat (I'm not trying to brag for those people dealing with coldness) and tired from today.

My sisters' trip out here was awesome. They got in on Friday night, and we had a full week to do things in town. Saturday we went to Red Rock Canyon. It was really cool. I was glad I was finally going out there. I have seen it from the highway many times, but I was actually going to be going to see it. It was all good until I noticed a snake hole. Not cool. I know there are rattlers out there, there were many signs that they were there. I'm glad I didn't know while I was there, but I guess this is the time of year when there are the most rattlesnake bites since they're just coming out of hibernation. Not cool. I stuck in the car for the rest of the time. That night Sue broke my sink, and I had to wait til morning for it to work. Oh well, she didn't mean to clog up my sink. The best was walking into my apartment with her running into my kitchen with my plunger. Easter we went gambling at the casino that's right near my apartment. Sue and I both won $10. The rest of the day we just bummed around the apartment. Monday we woke up early to get to Carlsbad, CA. We got out of my apartment at about 10:45 or so, and hit traffic like none other once we got onto the interstate 20 minutes from my apartment. I decided to get off of the interstate, and take my sisters down the Strip since we hadn't gone down there yet. Big mistake. I should've taken another way. I think we finally got going at about noon. It took us what seemed like forever. Hit more traffic in San Bernardino, but we managed not to kill each other...barely. It was fun seeing the ocean for the first time. I have seen the Gulf of Mexico, but not a real ocean. It was really fun. The water was cold, but it was fun. I wasn't prepared properly for walking the beach. I didn't know I would find so many cool shells. I know, I'm a girl...and I seem to be 5 years old if I'm collecting shells. Oh well, deal with it people! I ended up filling my sandals the second time on the beach. I did find a sand dollar. That was cool. It's only half of one, but I kept it, and it's on my dash in the Clown Moble Deuce. We came back, headed to the Strip for Sue's birthday, had yard longs while Sue turned 30. We were sitting at slots and drinking when it turned midnight. The next day we all got tattoos! YES, I GOT A TATTOO!! I thought it was going to hurt but, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it was going to. I decided on a really cute Curious George. I liked it, and everyone who was watching me liked it too! Thursday we bummed around on the Strip, and went to my godparents' house. I told my sisters that I didn't want them to know that I got a tattoo. I was more worried about their reaction than my parents. My godfather just stared at me with his eyes wide, and speechless. Thanks Sue for telling them right away. Headed to Red Rock Casino, since we wanted to go to the opening, but decided to stay on the Strip. We also hit up the world's largest buffet! It was really good. Friday we went back to the Strip for the places we hadn't gotten to yet. We saw Elvis! It was awesome. We were heading back to the car, and he was walking down the Strip. I'm happy to report to you all that Elvis is alive and well! We were able to get to Watson for Sue and Jen to see my room, and take some pics for mom. After that, it was back to my apartment to eat dinner, clean up, and pack up to go home! I couldn't wait. We got on the plane, I woke up for soda and cookies, and was out for the rest of the flight.

Saturday morning was awesome! I got home, saw the dog, mom and dad. Soon after that, Patty and Erika were at the condo, and then to the Farmer's Market. That was awesome. I love the Farmer's Market, and am glad I was there for opening day. I wish I would've gotten there earlier, but I was too busy talking to the fam and playing with Eva. After the Farmer's Market was breakfast with Dan, Jason, Erika and Patty at Mikey's Dairy Bar. It was crowded since the spring football game was going on that day. I ended up falling asleep on the couch with Erika at Dan's. Patty was trying to fix Jason's computer, and I just zonked out for a few. I felt like a narcoleptic that day. I was wide awake when I got home from Dan's, talking to mom, and playing with the dog. I put in RENT for mom and I to watch, and I saw the first and last 5 minutes of the movie. Woke up, had a snack, laid down on mom's bed, and then woke up to Sue telling me dinner was ready. The next incident was while watching shows we had taped during the week. That's when I decided to go to bed, and then I woke up when Sue came to bed...and then I slept until the next morning. Sunday was excellent! I got to see most of my peeps from the old days at SNC. Niki, Dan, and Adam were all there, as well as my real OLD school peeps (whom I wouldn't trade for the world) Erika and Patty. Well, Erika was there for the whole day, and Patty came for the evening festivities with Adam, Erika and I. Those consisted of heading down to State Street...and having to turn around halfway there for my ID. I'm an idiot. The rest of the week was great too. I spent the days going through all of my stuff at home and in the storage shed. I threw away a good 2 truck loads of crap that I've accumulated over the years. I looked at stuff, and if I hadn't used it in the last year or so, it was thrown. I kept pictures and such that were drawn for me by people, and stuff like that, but most of my crap was junked or donated. I know I'll be able to walk into St. Vinnie's at home and see my stuff in there soon. I got to hang out with my peeps all week, and ended up at the same Perkins 3 times while I was home. Good things came from those trips. Diva Dan. "Who's your daddy?!" "You don't f$%@ with a fat girl and her free ice cream" and "BASTARDS!" will forever remain in my memories from that trip. There are others, but I'll keep those to myself for right now. :) I got to see a friend from childhood that I haven't spent anytime with alone since I graduated from college. It was nice seeing her, and getting to spend time with her kids. There were a bunch of people I didn't get to see. I wish I could've spent more time alone with Patty, and my parents. I feel bad that I wasn't able to do that. I didn't get enough quality Patty time, which was my fault since I was all narcoleptic the night she wanted to hang out. It was really hard for me to leave this time...I knew I would be leaving my friends and come home to an empty apartment....

One thing that came out of this trip was the realization that I want to move back and teach in Wisconsin. Well, just move back. If I don't go back to teaching, I'm thinking maybe I want to go back to school for Student Affairs. Many of my happiest memories of stem from me being an RA. I know that's not all Student Affairs is, but I'm entertaining the thought. I should maybe contact people about that...I did decide to start applying online for jobs back home. I want to move back...desperately. I told my principal and assistant principal that today. My assistant principal called last week while I was gone about what my plans were for next school year. I told her what was going on, and then she told me that there was an opening still at our school in 4th grade. She made it seem like I didn't want to take on that position. I had to tell her that I like the older grades. I wouldn't mind that position. After she found out about me thinking about leaving the district, she told me that out of professional courtesy I should surplus. I didn't know what to do. I think she wanted me to decide right then and there what I wanted to do. Are you kidding me? I had until 3 to decide. It was about 11:30 when she told me that. I spent the rest of the afternoon crying and talking to people about what I should do. I haven't cried that much in a long time. I decided to surplus, and I think that is the best thing for me. I told my dad that if I got a really crappy job, I would leave the district for the next school year, and move home...even if I didn't have a job. He didn't have a problem with that...I figured he would. It kinda scared me. Oh well, what's done is done, and I'm working towards a better tomorrow...and a cooler tomorrow...