Good Weekend

"Old Time Memory"-Josh Kelley

Standin 'round in a crowded room
Your face is here bring me back to you
Leaving town slips into my head again
My friends say stay but I wanna go
There's people here that I used to know
To the situation that you put me in
And I can tell myself that I will be gone
You can rest assure that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory
You're an old time memory

Laying back with the headphones on
A pen in hand takes me to the dawn
Paper warned to the thoughts of you again
Taking light of the time of night
A ballpoint fast full of work in mind
The chorus playing in my head again
Cuz I can tell myself that I will be gone
But you can rest assure that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory
You're an old time memory

Well the feelings that remain
And the promises in vain
And the memories are stained
You do

Cuz I can tell myself that I will be gone
And you can rest assured that I will be home

Cuz I belong to the best of you
And you belong to the things I do
Well this song is how I'll remember you
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
Cuz I can tell you what its like to be gone
You're an old time memory


I put in an old CD on Friday night as I was driving back from picking up Chinese for dinner. I had a mini-meltdown at school, and needed something good for dinner...something I didn't have to cook. I put in a CD that I made 3 years ago, and this song was on it. I've loved this song forever...and Josh Kelley. There are other songs on the CD that make me smile with memories of back then. Good times.

As I said, I had a mini-meltdown at school on Friday. The whole day started out on the wrong foot. As I was getting dressed, I decided I wanted to wear a black shirt. I put on my black bra (sorry, tmi, I know...), and then my black shirt. Well, I decided to change my shirt, because I didn't want to wear my black shoes. I put on a lavender shirt. About 3/4 of the way to school I realize that I'm wearing a lavender shirt with a black bra. Great, I don't have time to turn around and change. I'm panicking and looking in the mirror to make sure you can't see my shirt. You can't, so I'm ok. I get to school, I'm printing out my lessons, and checking my email. I get up, go to the board, and start writing the DOL and math review on the board for the kids. As I'm writing, I hear the asst. principal come on the PA and start telling the teachers that if we had Art for our special, we would have to keep the kids since there wasn't a sub for the Art teacher. I look up to the place where I keep the specials listed...yep, Art is today. At lunch I find out someone is going home early, and there's the possibility of some of her kids coming into my room, so I have to figure out what to do with these kids. Turns out the kids aren't coming in, but I still had to think of something to do for my kids during Art. I decided to take them outside, even though it was hotter than Hades out, to play a game to review verbs and adjectives. I got many, "it's too hot out" or "I'm sweating". I'm trying to do something fun for you kids, and all you do is complain?! Not cool. I take them back inside, tell them I don't want to hear voices in the hallway. They were loud as hell! I took them back into the room, made them line up quietly, and that didn't happen. I sat down and told them I wanted explanations as to why they were so loud. One of the kids told me that it was because it was Friday. I didn't care, and I told him that's not a good excuse. Then a couple of kids told me they were bored. That was the last straw. These are the kids who had been talking too much all day, and weren't paying attention to anything going on. I felt tears welling up behind my eyes, and my voice was cracking when I was telling one of my problem students that he needed to get in line. A student asked if I was crying, and i told her that no, I wasn't crying, but I was ready to. They quieted down for a few minutes, but were back to normal soon after...I left school, blared SOS as loud as I could, and came home. I almost screamed when I looked toward my patio ledge to find that half of the buds on my plant (Gwyndolyn) bent over. I came in, dropped everything on the floor, and rushed outside with water for my plant. I turned on my computer, but I just wanted to put up an away and lay down for a bit. Before I could put up an away, John IMed me, and told me I needed to apply to a kindergarten job at a Catholic school in Merrill, since he'll be the Youth Minister there. We got to talking, and I was half paying attention since I was playing my games on Pogo, and telling mom about my day. After I hung up with mom, John and I were discussing me moving home and why. I gave him some reasons, and he suggested one more...it made me literally laugh out loud. Leave it to a man who was almost a priest to get me out of my funk. :)

Yesterday I got a wake up call at 9:30 from Mary. She invited me over for dinner Sunday night, and I think could tell she woke me up. It was a hot day. It finally broke 100, and I finally turned on the air. I was sitting at my computer feeling a hot breeze coming in, and decided to turn on the AC. There's nothing like wearing a tank top and trying to put what little hair you have back in a pony tail to cool you off. I put in a great CD, and started working on my lessons. A few minutes after I started my lessons, there was a friendly knock on my door. I didn't know what to do...I had my music blaring, and I looked like hell. I went to the door, looked out, and there was a really cute guy standing in front of my door. I knew Dan would kill me if I didn't answer it, so I did. He started telling me that he was a neighbor out getting votes for a trip somewhere, and that he was doing this as part of his communications class to better his public speaking skills. He was really funny and such, and I was talking with him, and he started showing me magazine lists. There were no prices, and I got sucked into thinking they were for free as part of his class. Turns out I wrote out a check for magazines, but looking back, I shouldn't have. I'm going to call and cancel my subscriptions tomorrow since I can't afford any magazines right now. But he was cute, and I was flirting back. See guys, I can do it...he was a complete stranger! I set a goal of 8:30 to get my lessons done, and I did meet that goal. I went out shopping for sandals, and other things. I got my sandals, some freeze pops, and a pot to replant Gwyndolyn. Painted the pot (I've missed doing that every year like we did in Sensenbrenner), and watched TV.

Today I woke up and started cleaning up the apartment. I went shopping for produce and stuff to make for Mary and Roger. Got some great watermelon, cantaloupe, strawberries, and asparagus. Got cookie dough to put in the oven to make cookies for Mary and Roger. Went to Mary and Roger's, and had a very fun time. As I was leaving, Mary was telling me that there's a good restaurant in their gated community, and how they'd have to take me sometime. And she kept telling me how great her school is. Somehow I think Mary and Roger are trying to make me want to stay in Las Vegas.