Black Hole

I started watching "The Dive from Clausen's Pier" (which supposedly takes place in Madison) tonight on Lifetime while I was eating dinner, and there was a great quote. "Madison's like a black hole.  It'll suck you in until you're fat and old."  Does that mean I'll end up back there? 

I've officially decided that Saturday nights will from now on be, "Chick Flicks in Candlelight Night".  Tonight was my night to watch Elizabethtown.  This was the last movie I saw in the theater.  I remember seeing it with Patty and Erika.  It was right after my interview out here.  We went to see a late show since both Erika and Patty had to work, but we still had a good time.  Erika and I weren't ready to go to bed, so we went off in search of Dan.  Good stalking time!  It was good fun...Anyway to the things that popped up in my mind during the movie:

• My road trip out here when I moved.  Drew ends up taking a road trip during the movie.  He's driving from Kentucky to Oregon.  As he was driving, he saw a giant Jesus.  It reminded me of the ginormous cross (Western Hemisphere's Largest!) in Texas.  Good times.  I still remember how excited Adam and I were to see something touristy.  He also stopped at the OKC Memorial.  It was cool to think how I had been there too.  He was looking at things I had looked at.  It was just surreal that I had been there too.  I dunno, maybe it was just my mood during the movie.


• I was also thinking of a road trip that I had planned way back when in high school.  Patty and I were going to graduate and drive out to Vegas.  Yeah, we couldn't gamble or drink, but it was going to be OUR trip.  We were going to come out here to see my godparents, and see where the trip took us.  In a way, I was really sad that my road trip out here was without her.  We never took the trip, we always said there was always time for it.  Hopefully when she comes out to visit, it's on one of my breaks, and we can road trip it back to Madison.  We can finally get our road trip in. 


• And just a good quote from the movie: "To have never taken a solitary road trip across country? I mean everybody's got to take a road trip, at least once in their lives. Just you and some music."  Yeah, it wasn't alone, but it was still fun, and I'll have the memories for the rest of my life.  I'll see something that reminds me of the 3 days spent with Adam and the open road to my dreams, and I'll be sent back to that time, with a big smile on my face. 

And now for some randomness that came to me late last night, but wasn't in the mood to type:

• As I started up my WinAmp last night to get rolling on typing up my lessons for this week (which have been saved to both my disk, hard drive, and now sent via email to my school acct), "Regulators" came on.  There are two things that come to my mind when I hear that song.  The first:  The Res.  Marx and I were taking a road trip one day our junior (Marx) and sophomore (me) year.  I had told her I really hadn't been any more north than Door County (except when I was really little, and I don't remember it), and she didn't like that one bit.  She decided to take me up to Antigo, where she's from, on a Friday afternoon.  We were both free after 10:30, or something like that, so we set off on the open road.  As we were driving back to Green Bay, we were going through the Menominee Reservation.  This song came on, and we blared it and danced our hearts out in the car.  Then we were off to the Days Inn in Green Bay for our free night.  We used our Hall Director's (Harr) blender to finish off some of the margarita mix that Marx had in her room at SNC.  We made sure to stop at WalMart in Shawano to get some "classy" margarita glasses.  It was a great night.  I'll forever remember it.  The second time would be senior year, Environmental Studies.  It was Erin, Jenny and I.  We shouldn't be in a class together.  I would come into class and whisper it to Jenny right as the Powerpoint lecture began.  It would get into her head for the whole class.  There was one day where she actually wrote out the lyrics to try and get it out.  Ever since then, I've been a bitch in her eyes... :-D


• I was talking to Dan today, and he was listening to "Rainbow Connection" on the cult CD.  We were talking about the good ol' days of all of us being on the same campus, and such, and then he told me how this song makes him think about my future wedding.  He and Adam have already told me that they're going to sing this at my wedding.  I think I now know two people who may or may not get invited.  :)  My wedding...I had to kind of plan it senior year.  I had to take a class, Society, Sex and Marriage (it was an interesting class), and we had to think of 5 symbols we wanted to use in our wedding.  I remember taking this assignment to Perkins, and having everyone there help me think of things I wanted.  I can't remember what I wanted, but I remember that I wanted to remain real traditional.  Yes, I can be a girl sometimes, and this is one day that you'll ever see me really girly.  I can remember thinking back then about the kind of guy I wanted to marry.  In high school I started a list of qualities that I wanted in a guy.  Sense of humor, good with kids, spontaneous, and he had to sing.  Eventually the singing turned to anything musical, to anything artistic.  Over the years, I added stupid things, able to play baseball on account of most baseball players were good looking.  Then there were the practical things.  No guys from Illinois (obvious reasons people...I mean think about it.  Illinois.  No.  I mean, people have told me that I'm going to have to make a contract with my future husband about never living in Illinois because of my dislike of the dang state.), and he has to have come from somewhere close to where my family is so that we can make sure to get to both families for the holidays.  In college I was thinking about what it would be like to marry a teacher.  I'm a teacher, do I want to come home to a teacher?  Do I want to be able to have conversations about work, and have it be the same thing, just different grade levels/schools/principals?  I thought that it would be boring.  They'd have the same day, you'd have the same convos, and it would just become redundant much sooner than marriage already seems to do.  And here I am now, a few years later thinking, "Damn, I wish I could come home to someone who knows what I'm going through, and can just tell me 'Calm down, everything's going to be alright.  Let me help you think of some things you can do, that I've tried in my classroom.'"  Yeah, I had that at my godparent's house, but that's not my husband.  Cripes, I'm talking about my husband when I don't know who Mr. Right is, and don't have a Mr. Right Now. 


• I talked to Hooch online last night while I was getting ready for bed.  I miss Hooch.  She always manages to make me smile.  She had some good ones last night.  I always had someone that I couldn't sit near during staff meetings in Sensenbrenner.  Marx my first year, Anne and Amanda my second year, and it was Hooch my third year.  I swear Michelle was going to kill me by the end of my third year with all of the chattering had by me my 2 years with her.  Good times had by all. 

This is what chick flicks do to me.  I start to think about things, and then my minds gets carried away.  I was way to reminiscent tonight.  Damn.  I need someone to just tell me to calm down.  Everything's going to be alright....