Calmed down...but it took awhile

So, here's what happened last night to make me pissed...

I was putting the finishing touches on my lessons for the week.  When I do my lesson plans, I do them by subject, and then I put them in order by day.  I have my math all put together and separated by day, and I do that for all of the subjects.  Then I go through and put all of my Monday lessons together in the order that I'm going to do them, then Tuesday, and so on.  I finished my lessons on Friday at midnight, so I thought I would stop to go to bed and come back to them later.  I was putzing online last night when I remembered I still had to put all of my lessons together by date.  I had just finished doing that, hit save, and my computer froze and restarted.  I lost it all.  I lost all of my lessons for the week.  Word doesn't work on my computer, so all of my documents are created on Wordpad...which doesn't have recovery like Word.  I was so upset!  I called Sue, it was 1:35am her time, and she gave me crap for calling so late.  She then apologized when she heard me start to cry.  I had spent at least an hour/hour and a half on those things each night last week, and a few hours on Friday night.  It was not cool losing all of my hard work.  I hung up with Sue eventually, and called Patty hoping she'd answer her phone.  She didn't (I don't blame her), so I left a frantic message on her phone, trying not to cry in the message.  I told her to call me as soon as she could when she got up in the morning.  I proceeded to turn off my computer, and head into my room to sleep.  I got into my jammies, crawled into bed, grabbed Nameless Elephant to snuggle with, and proceeded to cry because I was stressing so much.  I didn't fall asleep until about 1am.

At about 5:30am, my phone rang, and it was Patty.  She tried all she could with the help, but nothing worked.  It's ok...I can deal.  Just breathe.  I got done with her at about 5:50, and headed back to bed for about an hour.  I got up, headed to school, and stopped freaking out.  I used lessons that I hadn't done last week, and I had my lessons handwritten in a notebook. 

I got done with school, tried loading my lessons on Word at school, didn't work.  Oh well.  I ejected my disk, got ready to leave so I could work at home.  (I can't get anything done at school.)  I packed up a few school books that had the lessons in them, I just needed to copy them into my format.  I get out of school, listen to a message from Amanda, and blare my Michael Buble in my car.  I then check my phone to see if I had turned it off of silence.  Nope, not yet.  I had a new message.  It was mom, she was having a pity party for me at home.  "Sue called and told us about your night last night.  Give us a call if you want to talk about it.  I'm sending lots of hugs and praying for you."  Great, put me in a mood already mom.  I call home, and she's all "I'm so sorry that happened to you...blah, blah, blah."  I know she's just concerned, but still...she didn't know what she was talking about, and I wasn't in the mood to explain it.  I just wanted to get an hour's worth of work done, and take a break from anything school related for an hour and watch Gilmore Girls.  I was reaching into my bag for my lesson disk (to copy and paste last week's lessons into this week's), and it's nowhere to be found.  Yep, left it in my room.  I grabbed my keys to go back to school, and then noticed the time.  There would be no way I could get back into school seeing as how I don't have the afterhours code to get in.  I threw my keys across the apartment whilst screaming "SON OF A BITCH" with mom and dad on speakerphone at home.  I think I scared mom, because she told me to call later.  I got in my car to go to school, but then rethought that when I got about a mile from home.  I'd never make it in time.  I may as well just go and work on the lessons in the notebook.  I walked into my apartment laughing to myself thinking about how ironic it would be if I left my notebook at school...sure as shit, I did.  It's on my desk at school under some papers I copied today.  More fits ensue, along with more crying (I think this was the third time since I left school at 3:45 that I was crying on account of my lessons...it was 4:30pm).  I decided to go and see if I could actually get the jar of sauerkraut open to keep my mind off of my lessons for a minute.  The jar wouldn't open last night, and I figured with sitting for a bit, it would open.  It wouldn't.  I hit it with a knife.  Nothing.  I tried harder with the jar opener thingy.  Nothing.  More tears of frustration.  I reached into my big silverware drawer, a little violently, and grabbed my can opener.  I beat the shit out of my jar to see if it would open.  Yep, it did.  I sat down to plan, and got some lessons done before 5pm and Gilmore Girls.  Grabbed the last of the cookies, heated them up for 30 seconds, and laid down on the futon to relax for an hour.  Got up at 6 (I totally ditched my That 70's Show all night for these damn things!) to finish, and finally got done close to 8.  At about 7:15, I had to call Erika since Conjunction Junction came on.  Talked to her for a bit.  Called Sue, called mom to let her know that I was calm.  I put the finishing touches on at about 8:15, and was done.  I knew that How I Met Your Mother would be on soon, but I hadn't talked to Adam in a long time.  A song came on my Winamp that reminds me of him, so I thought I would give it a whirl.  Maybe he's be sleeping.  Nope, he was awake.  I missed all of my new episode to talk.  I broke the "no talking during my shows" rule.  (Sorry Patty...I tried that last week, but I was watching whilst talking to you.  I still remember what we were talking about though!)  He cheered me up.  I was able to laugh about today.  Good times had by all.  We got discussing about how we had things for each other, and ruined each other's surprises.  Oh well.  I can deal.  I don't know when it's coming, so that'll be a surprise. 

Anyhoos...must be off to bed since I didn't get much last night.  Here's to a better tomorrow!  (When I'll not be doing anything school related once I leave that place in the afternoon!)